Wednesday, July 21, 2004
The One With the Quarter-Life Crisis
Something I got from a friend..
Something I got from a friend..
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you stop going along with the crowd
And start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself
That you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure
And wonder where you will be in a year or two,
But then get hot and scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe,
Those friends that you thought you were so close to
Aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met
And the people you have lost touch with
Are some of the most important ones.
What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too
And are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere,
But that they are as confused as you are.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing
Or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that
You are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups,
Of socializing with the same people on a constant basis.
But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing
And find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly,
You realize that you have certain boundaries in your life
And add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not.
You are insecure and then secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.
You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy
And you cry and cling on to the past with dear life
But soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away
And there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
The stupid ones plateau, the smart ones rise.
You get your heartbroken and wonder how someone you loved
Could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder
Why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better.
You love someone but maybe love someone else too
And cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap,
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over
And talk with your friends about the same topics
Because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You wonder what in the hell is wrong with you.
You worry about loans and money and the future, making a life for yourself.
While winning the race would be great,
right now you'd just like to be a contender!
We are making a lot of mistakes, but helping one another learn from them.
We will piss one another off, and laugh at the end of a conversation
That started with angry words.
We are a group that talks behind the backs of the same people we call to meet up with on a Friday night,
But we are sorry about it and we know that we were just being insecure like they have been.
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it
And we are all in this together. We are in our best of times
And our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
We are friends, and in 10 years we will be friends
Who have figured out where we fit in this world.