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Friday, October 29, 2004
The One With The Ops Jejak Kasih 

I went for a buka puasa held by one of my schoolmate.. batchmate to be precise.. it was plain simple.. nasi putih + lauk + sayur + kuih + drinks.. simple enuff compared to a buffet buka puasa.. however.. it wasn't the food that matters the most.. but "Ukhuwah" & "silaturrahim".. the best thing was, after Solat jemaah together, twenty plus of us sat around and brainstormed ideas for our upcoming grand tradition gathering in 2006 plus some kutuk-kutuk of each other in between.. haha.. that was really fun..

I was then (along with Bachin) named to lead a big project, called Ops Jejak Kasih.. basically to trackback all our batchmates and gather the information and put it into an accessible database.. hopefully with this database, we might ensure a 90%-100% attendance in the next coming official gathering.. quite a tough job it is.. so little time for me, who soon to be jobless in few weeks.. why? ermmm.. will tell about it later..

For the time being, i've to concentrate on this Jejak Kasih thingy..

ps: Pau, modaq ur help is needed later on.. i'll discuss with u guys later..


at the Penthouse






The One With the Comeback 

I was on my way to my company's product launch by Msia's Bank Governor yesterday (we are the solution provider) in KL. As I drove passed Jalan Tun Perak, I saw these posters "Marilah beramai-ramai ke KLIA 31 Nov menyambut kepulangan Dato Seri Dr Anwar Ibrahim" or so it said. Cant really remember the exact words, but it meant one thing; to welcome back DSAI. He'll probably be strong enough to entertain his people this time around, and probably let them know his next move about anything or everything.

I guess it would be a blessing in disguise for his supporters who work in S'gor. Coz it's HOLIDAY this Monday!!!

Have a good weekend everyone! And fill up your petrol 23:59 31st NovOct!






The One With The Oil Price 

There's some rumors saying that the oil price is RM1.75 effective on the 1st November?!!!!!!

Is this true?






Thursday, October 28, 2004
The One With Dr Phil's Test 

Have a break...

Below is Dr. Phil's test. (Dr. Phil scored 55 --he did this test on Oprah - she got a 38.) Some folks pay a lot of money to find this stuff out. Read on, this is very interesting!

The following is pretty accurate and it only takes 2 minutes. Take this test for yourself and send it to your friends. The person who sent it placed their score in the subject box. Please do the same before forwarding to your friends. Don't peek but begin the test as you scroll down and answer. Answers are for who you are now......not who you were in the past.

Have pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today. It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees.

It's only 10 simple questions, so...... grab a pencil and paper! Keep track of your letter answers. Ready?? Begin...
=====================================================

1. When do you feel your best?
a) in the morning
b) during the afternoon &and early evening
c) late at night

2. You usually walk...
a) fairly fast, with long steps
b) fairly fast, with little steps
c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face
d) less fast, head down
e) very slowly

3. When talking to people you...
a) stand with your arms folded
b) have your hands clasped
c) have one or both your hands on your hips
d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair

4. When relaxing, you sit with...
a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
b) your legs crossed
c) your legs stretched out or straight
d) one leg curled under you

5. When something really amuses you, you react with...
a) big appreciated laugh
b) a laugh, but not a loud one
c) a quiet chuckle
d) a sheepish smile

6. When you go to a party or social gathering you...
a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed

7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're
interrupted.....you
a) welcome the break
b) feel extremely irritated
c) vary between these two extremes

8. Which of the following colors do you like most?
a) Red or orange
b) black
c) yellow or light blue
d) green
e) dark blue or purple
f) white
g) brown or gray

9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before
going to sleep.... you are
a) stretched out on your back
b) stretched out face down on your stomach
c) on your side, slightly curled
d) with your head on one arm
e) with your head under the covers

10. You often dream that you are...
a) falling
b) fighting or struggling
c) searching for something or somebody
d) flying or floating
e) you usually have dreamless sleep
f) your dreams are always pleasant

POINTS:

1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6

2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1

3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6

4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1

5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2

6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2

7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4

8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1

9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1

10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1

Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS: Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.

51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.

21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.

UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.






The One With the Kiara Cemetery (part 2) 

Well. to tell you the truth.. I wasn't really taught about life and death matters when I was a kid.. my grandfather passed away when I was 4.. I still remember how I was too afraid to give a kiss goodbye to him, thus I just looked from far.. I also opted to be squeezed by my two elder brothers at the backseat of the car rather than sit beside the window.. The main reason? hmmm.. if you drive from Batu Pahat to Pontian using 'jalan pantai'.. you can see many cemeteries on the right or left side of the road.. so by sitting in the center, i felt much safer.. stupid me.. but that was what I'd being taught!

Heh.. I took me a while to overcome my Coimetrophobia (Fear of cemeteries).. The real break-through was when I stayed with my uncle and his family just 6 years ago.. I went through the last months of uncle's father-in-law.. from the moment he was struck by Angin Ahmar, sent him to the hospital, took care of him for almost 3 months, brought him back to the house, stayed beside him during 'nazak' until his 'roh' passed his body, 'mandi', 'kafan', etc.. I was also the one who went down into the 'liang lahad' to received the 'jenazah'.. from that moment I realized I'd totally overcome the fear..

My uncle is a bit religious.. I saw how calm he was.. teaching his little boys, (aged 6 and 3), to sit down beside the 'jenazah' and sent prayers to their grandpa.. such a shame coz I never have the same guts when I was at their age.. I really learnt a lot from that experience..

I don't blame my parents for not teaching me all those.. it was all in the early 80s.. but I felt disgusted when reading Star Metro's report.. even in this new millenium, people don't really teach their children about life and death.. they are still afraid of their future 6' x 4' land.. like they are going to live forever.. Hmm.. they are totally against the clear-up of some few acres green scenery.. What about many other hectars which turning into housing areas.. A reminder here, you might not need a bungalow, a Semi-D, a link house or an apartment.. but you will definitely need yourself a peice of land.. the 6' x 4' land..

It made me more upset to learn the Condo management spent a damn lot of money to hire lawyers to fight against the ongoing graveyards development.. whereby they should look into existing aging facilities.. how to get break-down-free-elevators, a better garbage disposing system, cleaner water supplies... the list can go on and on..






Wednesday, October 27, 2004
The One With the Kiara Cemetery 

As most would have known, we are one of the residents of Desa Kiara Condominium. Or what some relatives jokingly identify as the Kubur View Condominium. Ah, yes our kitchen and one of our rooms have a terrific view; The Kiara Muslim Cemetery.

Today, on Star Metro, there's an article on this issue, check it out here.

True, a cemetery is not a great view. True, that there is a lot of taboo about cemetery. Some say they saw something late at night and wat-not. The Chinese would have hate it because of feng shui reasons. The others? Well...probably just fear of the dead I guess. But Alhamdullillah laa (Thank Allah the Almighty!) that ever since we stayed there, for a year that is, nothing has happened to us. Nothing has happened to me earlier too, when I stayed there with my family (mom & sis) for a year, a few years back.

And of course, it is not a great thing for kids too. Babies and kids have the sense and may detect the creatures of the other world. As the article mentioned, Norhalilah has had enough. She is putting her beloved Desa Kiara Condominium home up for sale. "I don't want my children to grow up in fear,'' she said. . However, we strongly disagree with this statement, because, these creatures (bebenda halus dan seangkatan dgnnya) exist almost everywhere, not just cemeteries. So, this is something that needs to be taught. As parents should also teach about life and death. There shouldnt be fear of the cemetery, rather fear of the Almighty. It's the home of everyone later anyway.

What most people do not know is that this cemetery was allocated at the area even before the condo was built. So, who should we blame here? Definitely there is a need to have cemetery in the area, and a big one too. I have a relative buried there, and I feel remorsed whenever I passed by the cemetery, and send prayers to him and members of the cemetery. It gives me the realisation that some day I'll end up there too, and that God can easily take my life away from me, without any signs or hesitation. And I would gladly be placed where it's near home, where it is easily accessible by my family.

The thing is that...the cemetery should have more trees around it. But of course, it is still new, so there's should be some allowance here to let the trees grow and wat-not. So to me really, the issue here is the greenery scenery.

*We will post some pictures later.






Monday, October 25, 2004
The One With Malaysian Math (part 2) 

Hypermarkets Told To Round Up Prices To Overcome One Sen 'Shortage'

KUALA LUMPUR, Oct 24 (Bernama) -- Hypermarkets should round up prices of their products if they do not have enough one sen coins for change rather than shortchange customers, Domestic Trade and Consumers Affairs Minister Datuk Shafie Apdal said Sunday.

He said the 99-sen figure was a popular sales gimmick to entice consumers into believing that the prices of goods were low.

"I don't see this as a problem to them. They can always round up the figure if they don't have enough one sen coins and it is a better way," Shafie told reporters during a visit to the Mutiara Damansara Tesco Hypermarket, here.

The one sen issue was raised last week when irritated hypermarket customers wrote to local newspapers claiming they were being shortchanged by the cashiers.

Tesco Stores (M) Sdn Bhd Chief Executive Officer James McCann, who was with Shafie, said there was a shortage of one sen coins at the bank on Oct 15.

"We did try to get enough one sen coins but the bank did not have enough coins. The other hypermarkets, I was told, also faced the same problem," he said.

McCann said that to overcome the one sen problem, the hypermarket cashiers had been told to give out five sen coins instead if there was a shortage of one sen coins.

Shafie said he was satisfied with the prices at the hypermarket.

-- BERNAMA
I heard this news over Mix.fm this very morning.. It took me until this evening to find the original source..

Hmmm.. I understand crystal-clearly with Mr. McCann statement, but slightly confused Domestic Trade and Consumers Affairs minister's to round up their prices? "Hypermarkets should round up prices of their products if they do not have enough one sen coins for change rather than shortchange customers".. ermm... so a 99-sen product should be selling at RM1? RM92.45 rounded up to RM93? Hmmm.. that's sure damn a lot of money.. Instead of being shortchanged of one or two cents; which happen rarely, (which never happen to me, so far), the minister asked hypermarkets to round all price up? Is that what he meant by that? Can anybody explain to me on this?

If what he meant is equal to what I understood, then he just reminded me to a redneck joke below :

Redneck Wins the Lottery
A Redneck buys a ticket and wins the lottery. He goes to Austin to claim it where the man verifies his ticket number.

The Redneck says, "I want my $20 million."

To which the man replied, "No sir. It doesn't work that way. We give you a million today, and then you'll get the rest spread out for the next 19 years.

The Redneck said, "I want all my money RIGHT now! I won it, and I want it."

Again the man patiently explains that he would only get a million that day and the rest during the next 19 years.

The Redneck, furious with the man, screams out, "Look, I WANT MY MONEY!! If you're not going to give me my $20 million right now, THEN I WANT MY DOLLAR BACK!''


"I know that you are stupid, but I never know that you are THAT stupid..."






Thursday, October 21, 2004
The One With the Open Letter 

I was supposed to publish this few days back.. but didn't have enough time to blog

I was sooooooooo tickled when reading this;

Are you sure on this Tun? Have you deeply think about it before you write this? I just don't want you to eat back your own words in another 4 years *(if you still around though)

Let me refresh your old memory to previous post-US Presidency Election. I am glad that Utusan still have this archive; dated 15 December 2000..

Kemenangan Bush dijangka pulihkan hubungan Malaysia-AS
ALOR SETAR 14 Dis. - Malaysia berharap kemenangan George W. Bush dalam pilihan raya Presiden Amerika Syarikat (AS) dapat memulihkan semula hubungan antara kedua-dua negara yang agak dingin sebelum ini.

Perdana Menteri, Datuk Seri Dr. Mahathir Mohamad berkata, beliau percaya Bush tidak akan mengamalkan dasar luar yang meminta rakyat sesebuah negara lain bangun menentang kerajaan mereka.

''Kita berharap kemenangan beliau (Bush) dapat memulihkan semula hubungan kita dengan kerajaan Amerika Syarikat atas dasar saling hormat menghormati antara satu sama lain,'' ujarnya.

Dr. Mahathir yakin Bush akan mengamalkan dasar luar yang berbeza dengan Al Gore yang secara terang-terangan mencampuri urusan negara ini seperti yang dilakukannya ketika menghadiri mesyuarat Kerjasama Ekonomi Asia Pasifik (APEC) di Kuala Lumpur dua tahun lalu.

Ketika berucap di hadapan pemimpin-pemimpin dunia termasuk Dr. Mahathir pada majlis makan malam APEC berkenaan, calon Parti Demokrat yang tewas itu meminta rakyat negara ini menyokong reformasi jalanan untuk menumbangkan kerajaan yang ada.

''Saya tidak percaya Bush akan datang ke sini dan membuat ucapan menyuruh rakyat memberontak menentang kerajaan,'' kata Dr. Mahathir kepada pemberita di Lapangan Terbang Sultan Abdul Halim, di sini setibanya untuk lawatan kerja ke negeri ini, petang ini.

Ketika diminta mengulas mengenai kekalahan Al Gore di tangan Bush dalam perebutan kerusi Presiden AS itu, Perdana Menteri menyatakan kegembiraannya dengan perkembangan tersebut.

''Saya gembira Al Gore tewas,'' ujarnya ringkas.


Simply because Al Gore made a public remarks on supporting Reformation Movement back in late 90s, Mahathir showed his support to the next worst thing, George W. Bush.. Now, after 4 years, the retired Malaysian PM Mahathir voiced his 'so-called' advice to vote against the same man..

And to make the thing worse, Dr. M also concluded in his open-letter, quote "It is truly an ibadah that you perform." unquote.. Then again, this is also against your principle, Mr Former PM.. I'm slightly confused over here, I thought you said nobody can determine who got the 'Pahala' or 'Dosa'?

I guess you're right Tun, Melayu Mudah Lupa..

PS: Note for Utusan, if Kerry does win this election, you can just copy the whole report and switch the names Dr M with Pak Lah, Bush with Kerry and Al Gore with Bush..






Wednesday, October 20, 2004
The One With the Circumcision 

On our next appointment to the gynae, we wish to inform the Doc that the baby will be circumcised the next day (after birth). Of course, that would be if the baby is healthy and all (InsyaAllah). Baby Karl had his a day after he was born, and the ordeal was short and safe, according to his dad that is.

So, I have been browsing the Net for circumcision.

What is Circumcision?
Cutting off the fold skin that normally covers the glans of the penis (for male) OR partial/complete removal ofany part of female genitalia.

One thing that I came across is:
If the circumcision of women is to be done, it involves cutting only the outer portion of the clitoris and not as is done in some Muslim countries as cutting off all the entire clitoris. 'Female circumcision' of the type practised by some people in Somalia, Egypt and some other African countries is a mutilation forbidden in Islam.


As a Muslim, this is a normal ordeal. Traditionally, boys would be circumcised before they are baligh. Where else, girls around the age of 2 or so. I remembered my guy friend had his when he was around 10, and my sister had hers when she was nearly 2. I was informed that nowadays, the circumcision ordeal is very safe and quick. They now use lasers, and with less pain. I, however, after looking and reading some facts on the Net pity my baby for having to go thru the ordeal, although I know it is a MUST. Thus the reason of getting it done as soon as possible. Babies heal faster. So, it would be best for my baby.

Baby, I am entrusting your father to by your side when you are circumcised nanti.

Read Pok Ku's Parting of Foreskins for traditional circumcision.

Links:
National Organization of Circumcision Information Resource Centers
What Happens During the Circumcision? (for male)
Circumcision (male) by FamilyDoctor
Female Circumcision
Traditional Circumcision Moslem Rites






The One With Semi Value 

Something for everyone...

BUKAN ORANG BIASA {Ikut melodi Bukan Cinta Biasa - Siti Nurhaliza}

Begitu banyak lebuhraya,
Ada retak dan tak rata,
Tapi menteri kerja raya,
Bukan lah orang biasa...

Projek2 yang berbeza,
Beri kontraktor yang sama,
Ku tak ingin rakyat tahu,
Tetapi mereka sering bertanya..

Diriku bukan orang biasa,
Diriku menteri kerja raya,
Tak perlu di paksa,
Tak perlu di tanya,
Kerna ku yakin tiada jawabnya.. oooo

Walau ku bisa merubah semua,
Hingga tiada orang cedera,
Tapi biarlah terkorban nyawa,
Akan ku salahkan takdirNYA...

Diriku bukan insan biasa,
Diriku menteri yang lama,
Tak ingin berhenti,
Tak ingin berganti,
Peduli hapa orang nak kata..

Andai ku mahu repair semua,
Ku beri kontraktor yang sama,
Highway kan runtuh telah ku duga,
Jangan harap ku letak.... jawatannnnn.....






Monday, October 18, 2004
The One With The Value of a Paper 

Practically most of us are degree holders. And as the numbers are increasing, it seems that even having degrees meant nothing. So, the next level would be to have Masters. And of course, it will only be a mtter of time, when we will have every Tom, Dick and Harry as Dr Tom, Dr Dick and Dr Harry.

This is one of the things my father kept on insisting that we pursue; getting ourselves Masters. We are holding it back for various reasons, one of it being the financing etc. But now, we got to know tht it is easier than that. Kacang putih. Read more here...

So what is paper qualification anyway? What is the value? I have always thought that to obtain certain things is to be able to understand it...or work for it. In other words, you have to earn it to get it. But, I guess, nowadays, because of pressure by everyone, having this paper is just so important that we simply have to have it by hook or by crook.

Oh come on... can you actually judge a person by counting the numbers of papers he has? Even now, people has started going for double degrees and wat-not. Tell me...what are we trying to prove here? That we are the smartest generation. Oh no, the Egyptians build the pyramids long time ago. The civilisation of men has been achieved centuries ago. So what now? Are we trying to be smarter or are we condoning ourselves to prove tht we are smarter yet we are actually growing stupider...

Then again the main question is what is the value of the paper? Can we actually say because he has more papers he is better than the other with lesser? How can we survive all these pressure? What do we want to be? Robots? Or plain insensitive overworked heartless soulless inhumane human? And we consider ourselves SMART.






The One With A Tragedy 

We regret to inform that Cairil Dr Nawawi (of Johor Bahru, a Sunway College student), 20 yrs old has passed away todayyesterday.

Al-Fatihah.






Thursday, October 14, 2004
The One With Maternity Leave 

I have just received an email from my HR Manager, regarding my Maternity Leave.

I will have 60 consecutive days of leave, basically 2 months. I shall start my maternity leave from 11 December 2004 till 8 February 2005.

*Definition of consecutive:


Check out the Malaysia's Dept of Labour.

Actually, there's a petition in trying to extend the maternity leave to 4 months. Some countries have even implemented it. That's the essential period to breastfeed babies. Nonetheless, it always depends on the company's policy. In Malaysia, the custom is that it is a paid leave, which is fine by me. As my boss put it, "Dapat duit saja2, tayah buat pape". Ahahaha...

Well that's one thing. But I would prefer if they have paternity leave. At least a week or two. I think the father should be given some time off to bond with the child and also help out the mother.

What say you?






The One With Sesame Street Live in Malaysia 

Big Bird. Elmo. Cookie Monster. Grover. Ernie. Bert. etc

They are all coming to town.

"All the way from the United States, this popular children's TV show comes live to Kuala Lumpur for the first time ever from 7 to 12 December. "


Check out TicketCharge for tickets and more information.

Sesame Street Live in Malaysia
Sesame Street Theme Song

Sunny Day
Sweepin' the clouds away
On my way to where the air is sweet

Can you tell me how to get,
How to get to Sesame Street

Come and play
Everything's A-OK
Friendly neighbors there
That's where we meet

Can you tell me how to get
How to get to Sesame Street

It's a magic carpet ride Sesame Street Live in Malaysia
Every door will open wide
To Happy people like you--
Happy people like
What a beautiful

Sunny Day
Sweepin' the clouds away
On my way to where the air is sweet

Can you tell me how to get,
How to get to Sesame street...
How to get to Sesame Street
How to get to...



Sesame Street has existed for as long as I could remember. It, however, never seems to be making a show here in Malaysia. We have seen Disney On Ice, Playhouse Disney etc. But never, Sesame Street.

I have checked the prices for the show though, (normal price ticket) ranging from RM40 to RM300. The one un-syok thing about this is that above 2 yr olds have to have a ticket and all tickets are priced the same for adults and children.






Tuesday, October 12, 2004
The One With Karl Kamaruzzaman 

Congratulations to Mr Rizal Kamaruzzaman and Karina Schultze for the birth of their son, Karl Kamaruzzaman yesterday afternoon.

Karl was 6 lb 12 oz (3.06 kg). According to Ritz, Karl loooks like Karina. Karina went through the c-section after being induced twice. Her due date was Oct 10th though. She was admitted to the hospital last Sunday, after there was no show of beginning signs.

We shall be visiting you guys soon, either this evening or tomorrow.

Congratulations again!






The One With Today and Now 

First, I was dying to finish my high school and start college.
And Then I was dying to finish college and start working.
Then I was dying to marry and have children.
And then I was dying for my children to grow old enough so I could go back to work.
But then I was dying to retire.
ANd now I'm dying.
Suddenly I realized that I forgot to live.

Dont let this happen to you.
Appreciate your present situation.
Enjoy each day.


Zen & Shariza: This is us, today and now!


Smile and live up your life today.
Live like there's no tomorrow.








Monday, October 11, 2004
The One With Globe Trekker 

Globe Trekker: Ian Wright

Globe Trekker? Ian Wright? Have you heard of him?

It seems that they are currently looking for a new Globe Trekker host for Asia.

"Discovery Travel & Adventure Channel’s Search for an Asian Globe Trekker host" was held in Berjaya Times Square over the weekend. Read more ...

Aaaahh....travelling. Sounds heaven to me. I just LOVE travelling. Nonetheless, being a host in an international channel would have its catch I guess. How was I supposed to eat all the food from different continents etc? That's the setback I guess. Being a muslim is one thing. Being me is another. I dont think I can easily swallow something I am totally yucky about. Eg cockroaches or grasshoppers. Frog legs. Argh!!! I dont mind the language. I dont mind the scenery. I dont mind the customs and traditions with the exception of FOOD and that I have to eat it lar kan..

I guess I am not cut out to be a Globe Trekker. But I 'dont mind' travelling, ayang! Care to sponsor me? Hint hint...






The One With Being Gutsy 

MaMa CHOPS and PaPa GRILLLast Saturday, we went out for a dinner at MaMa CHOPS PaPa GRILL new franchise outlet in Subang Jaya SS17. The owner was a friend of Zen's from UM. Yup, the owner is young, and he is 25 years old. I think it happened a year ago, when he saw the MARA ad which offered young entrepreneurs for it's franchise program. Shahrin took the chance, quit his job and went training for a few months. And now he owns a franchise restaurant. Aint that gutsy or what?!!!

The thing is, how much of a risk taker are you? Are you really that gutsy to jump into something u are not sure of? Of course, you would have to consider your responsibility and priorities...for instance, would it be enough at the end of the day for your family? What are the risks involved? Et cetera... So seriously...would you grab that opportunity or just let it go? Or would you keep sailing in the boat and wait for a bigger fish?

Indeed, it will always be easier for the singles to do so. But with a family? I think the deal is, to talk to your partner and see what he/she can do about it too. Of course, taking a risk would involve everyone around you, with the impact and effect would be too, be it positive/negative.

Taking a risk and being gutsy has its pros and cons. It depends on how you evaluate it, I guess.

Nonetheless, are you GUTSY enough?!!!






The One With The 1st Malaysian Idol 

So, almost everyone knows that Jac won the first Malaysian Idol title last Sunday. Singing 3 songs 'Tunggu Sekejap', 'When I fall in Love' and 'Gemilang', Jac outclassed JB talent, Dina. The former received 76% votes of nearly 1 million SMS sent in.


Jaclyn Victor

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I drove my car out of my condo gate today and saw a girl, dressed like Jac wannabe (with the triangle scarf) hoping into a blue Hyundai Matrix.. Haha.. the great impact of MI.. I passed the vehicle and noticed some stickers on the side of the car.. "TV3" and "Malaysian Idol".. Bugger!!.. it was JACLYN VICTOR.. what the hell she's doing outside our condo's parking lot.. immediately, i pulled over.. like a 'Mamapaparazzi', I grabbed my digicam.. turned it on.. but the Hyundai was too fast.. it already passed me.. I tried to get a closer look.. but they already headed to 8TV/TV3 studio at Bandar Utama while my office is at the opposite way..

Hmmm.. may be next time...


Malaysian Idol offical vehicle - Jac was inside it..






Friday, October 08, 2004
The One With the Entertainment Today 

Saw this last week...

An episode from Boston Public

Winslow students Jason Dunphy and Mark Clayton are videotaping a "bum fight" - a bare-knuckle brawl organized by the teens between two homeless men for money. Unfortunately, one of the men takes a few too many punches and dies. The teens are arrested and charged with murder, much to Ronnie's dismay. She enlists one of her former colleagues Sheila Penn to represent the boys at trial and Sheila wrangles Ronnie as co-counsel for the teens' probable cause hearing.

Both boys take a very cavalier attitude toward their involvement in the man's death. The ruling appears destined to hold the teens over for trial, but an impassioned appeal from Ronnie opens the judge's eyes. The murder charges are dismissed. Invigorated by her return to the courtroom and disappointed by her perceived lack of impact as a teacher, Ronnie is sorely tempted when Sheila offers her a job at her firm. But despite the intriguing offer, Ronnie decides teaching is her real true calling.


Jeri Ryan as Ronnie Cooke
How did Ronnie win the hearing then? She said something like...everytime she changed channels, it kept showing the same shows. Shows of different scenes but brings to the same conclusion. It is based on people's misery and depression. And that is what we, the audience like. Entertainment is watching other people suffer. Be it physically or emotionally. For example, 'Joe Millionaire'. It might be for the money in the first place. But what if in between the lines, people do eventually feel something towards each other? WHat if Joe really is looking for his love? And found? Yet, to his dismay, he is cheated too in the end.

For example, when we watch cartoon, we like it when Jerry managed to ridicule Tom, in which Tom will be shot or banged etc. Violence. There's no sense of empathy. Rather, it's promoting that we should seriously laugh at that.

Would it be because we like seeing people get hurt? For instance in the case of the bum fight or Fight Club, would it be because we cant do it coz it's illegal, yet it gives us the feeling of power when watching it? The power to hit people, and cause pain to them?







Thursday, October 07, 2004
The One With The Watch And Win Contest 

The Host : AXN asia
The Sponsor : Tourism Malaysia
The Question : Name the longest bridge in Malaysia? ...
The Hint : Watch AXN Saturday Night Movies
The Grand Prize : Holiday trip includes airfare and accommodation (3 days and 2 nights) for 2 to Kuala Lumpur Malaysia!!

ps: I've joined this contest, lets see what would happen if I win.. Is there any flight from Subang to KLIA? hehe..
pps: It'll be a different answer in another 5 years perhaps..






Wednesday, October 06, 2004
The One With the Braxton Hicks Contraction 

I have been having a problem with my bowel movements. It keeps giving me false alarms. I thought that perhaps it might be the Hicks contraction. But wasnt to sure about it.

So here goes..

What is Braxton Hicks Contraction?

A Braxton Hicks contraction is defined by Taber's Medical dictionary as an intermittent, painless contraction that may occur every 10 to 20 minutes after the first trimester of pregnancy. These contractions were first described in 1872 by British gynecologist John Braxton Hicks. Sometimes these contractions are also called prelabor contractions or Hicks sign. Not everyone will notice or experience these contractions, and some will have them frequently. Some mothers say that they notice them more in subsequent pregnancies than in their first pregnancy.
Usually women will notice them by casually brushing their hands against their protruding belly and notice that it has tightened, while other moms will notice the tight feeling without having to feel it with their hands. Don't panic if you don't notice them. Some women only notice them because they find them to be uncomfortable.

While Taber's medical dictionary may say that they are painless, pregnant women tell a different story, though most would call it uncomfortable rather than painful. If you experience discomfort or pain with these practice contractions, try out techniques you've learned in class to deal with labor, such as breathing, relaxation, massage, movement and more. Often women will find that simply changing position can help with any pain from these contractions. A nice warm bath or shower can also help relieve any achiness and promote relaxation.

The difference between a Braxton Hicks contraction and a true labor contraction?

Generally true labor contractions will get longer in length, closer in frequency and stronger in intensity. A Braxton Hicks contraction might get closer together but not consistently, or they may feel stronger but go away when you move around. Some moms say that they only experience Braxton Hicks contractions when moving around and they cease when mom sits down.

Calling your doctor or midwife should happen if you have contractions closer than 12 minutes apart prior to 37 weeks, as this might indicate preterm labor and not Braxton Hicks contractions.

While these many seem like an annoyance, yet another thing to deal with in pregnancy, they are believed to be helpful in preparing your body for labor, even though no noticeable progress can be seen.

True Labor vs. Braxton Hicks

Braxton Hicks True Labor
Contractions don't get closer together. Contractions do get closer together.
Contractions don't get stronger. Contractions do get stronger.
Contractions tend to be felt only in the front. Contractions tend to be felt all over.
Contractions don't last longer. Contractions do last longer.
Walking has no effect on the contractions. Walking makes the contractions stronger.
Cervix doesn't change with contractions. Cervix opens and thins with contractions.







The One With the Comfort Measures 

Ok..okay...

It's getting closer than ever...and i am having qualms...
Yup! So please bear with me...I'll probably post a lot of entries on being in labor these few weeks...

Was thinking about labor pain and how to control it...before the time to really push happens...
Found this article -->

"The knowledge and skills that will help you stay strong and work with your body as you give birth"

Take charge of your own labor by choosing the comfort measures that will work best for you.

  • Your Environment
    As you look at the rooms in the place where you'll give birth, think about how you can create an environment that will help you feel comfortable and confident.

  • Emotional Support
    Think carefully about whom you'll invite to share in your labor, must be supportive of your beliefs and plans for labor and must be able to convey to you a calm, competent, reassuring presence.

  • Temperature
    Heat and cold are effective pain relievers.

  • Bath and Showers
    Laboring women often find a warm bath to be very relaxing. The buoyancy of the water helps relieve some of the pain of the contractions, and the warmth of the water relieves tension. The relaxation and warmth may also help labor to progress.

  • Progressive Relaxation
    Focuses on specific muscle groups in order to differentiate between relaxation and tension. Begin in a well-supported position and tense each large muscle group in your body, noticing how it feels when it's tense. Breathe out and release the tension, noticing how the muscle group feels when it's relaxed.

  • Touch
    Touch tends to be more soothing when it's done with the whole hand and not just with the fingers

  • Imagery
    With imagery, you form a mental picture -- such as a favorite setting -- that helps create feelings of relaxation, calmness and security.

  • Meditation
    Many women relax by focusing on an object, picture, sound or activity. Some use total silence; others prefer music.

  • Attention Focusing
    Focusing on a task, such as relaxing and breathing through a contraction, may help reduce your perception of pain.

  • Breathing
    Your breathing pace and style are closely linked to your sense of calm and your ability to relax and cope. If you find that you're caught up in pain and tension, the quickest and most effective way to break that cycle is by taking one or two cleansing breaths (a deep breath in and out).

  • Use of a Birth Ball
    Leaning or sitting on the ball can decrease the discomfort of contractions, relieve the pain of back labor and aid in the descent of your baby into the birth canal.


Hubby, need your help in this (in the labor room) nanti!








The One With The 1 Series 

I drove to work early morning and saw some BMW buntings, saying "the 1 launch"... I saw some other buntings few weeks back with "M", "X", "Z", "3", "5", "6" and "7".. so i thought this "the 1 launch" could be their 1st launch or 1 year anniversary etc..

However, I was totally wrong.. read Berita Harian today and noticed.. BMW just launched their latest generation, first variant of "1-series" model, BMW 120i, a luxurious compact car first launched in Germany last month. It will be available in all BMW showroom by this Saturday. Two other variants of 1 series. BMW 116i and BMW 118i will come some time next year..

BMW 120i comes with with 4-cylinder 2.0 liter engine with variable valve timing, a six-speed automatic gearbox with Steptronic function for manual gear shifting, and RM229000 price-tag.. OTR without insurance.. hmm.. quoting Kiyosaki.. "We dont afford that.." "How can we afford that.."

Learning from ngising, I should sell some unit-trust..


BMW 120i






Tuesday, October 05, 2004
The One With the Shanghai Couple 

Read this thru my yahoogroups. Thought I would like to share it. It's pretty long though.

Read when you are free some time..


This is a wonderful and touching story of a Shanghai couple. It can happen to any of us. #Moral of the story...let's not be blinded by that moment of anger...there is no shame to seek forgiveness and to give forgiveness. Its worth your time to read the story till the end.

Enjoy... the reading

This is a true story, taken from "Family" (dictated by LD, edited by LSX, translated by SaFe).

Cruel misunderstandings one after another disrupted the blissful footsteps to our family. Our original intend of having Mother enjoy some quiet and peaceful moments in her remaining years with us went terribly wrong as
destiny's secret is finally revealed at a price, every thing became too late. Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years with us. Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young. Mother endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him, see him through to a university degree. You could say that she suffered a great deal and did everything you could expect of a woman to bring hubby to where he is today.

I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a balcony facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant some greenery. Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up and started spinning round and round. As I begged him to put me down,he said: "Lets go fetch mother." Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to rest on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he could pick me up at any moment put the tiny me into his pockets. Whenever we have an argument and both refuses to back down, he would pick me up and spin me over his head continuously until I surrender and beg for mercy. I became addicted to this kind of panic-joy feeling.

Mother brought along her countryside habits and lifestyle with her. For example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she could not stand it and would comment: "I do not know how you young people spend your money, why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat the flowers!" I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will also become better." Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby smiled: "Mum, this is a city-people's habit; slowly you will get use to it." Mother stopped saying anything. But every time thereafter, whenever I came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs. I told her and she would shake her head and express displeasure. Sometimes, when I come home with lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item how much they cost, I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it. Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would solve it." There begins the friction to our otherwise happy lifestyle.

Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast. In your view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the breakfast table, mother facial expression is always like the dark clouds before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice. She would use her chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest. As I am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and is exhausted from a long day of dancing around, I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional few minutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear to all the protest mother makes. From time to time, mother would help out with some housework, but soon her help created additional work for me. For example: she would keep all kinds of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on, and that resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags; she would scrimp on dish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so as not to hurt her feelings, I would quietly wash they again.

One day, late at night, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room. Hubby was placed in a difficult position, and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night. I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignored me. I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?" Hubby stared at me and said: "Can't you just give in to her once? We couldn't possibly die eating from a bowl however unclean it is, right?" After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to me and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house. During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to please. In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast, mother took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without any prompting. At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eating his breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for having failed to perform my duty as a wife. To avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work.

That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me:"LD,is it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you chose not to eat at home?" He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears as feeling of unfairness overwhelmed me. After some time, hubby sighed: "LD, just for me, can you have breakfast at home?" I am left with no choice but to return to the breakfast table. The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I felt a sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up my throat. I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I couldn't. I threw down the bowl and rushed into the washroom and vomited everything out. Just as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very loudly in her dialect, hubby was standing at the washroom doorway staring at mewith fire burning in his eyes. I opened my mouth but no words came out of it, I really didn't mean it. We had our very first big fight that day; mother took a look at us, then stood up and slowly made her way out of the house. Hubby gave me a final stare in the eye and followed mother down the stairs.

For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call. I was so furious, since mother arrived; I had been trying my best and putting up with her, what else do you want me to do? For no reason, I keep having the feeling to throw up and I simply have not appetite for food, coupled with all the events happening at home, I was at the low point in my life. Finally, a colleague said: "LD, you look terrible, you should go and see a doctor."

The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant. Now it became clear to me why I threw up that fateful morning, a sense of sadness floated through that otherwise happy news. Why didn't hubby, and mother who had been through this before, thought of the possibility of this being the reason that day? At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there. It had only been three days, but he looked haggard. I had wanted to turn and leave, but one look at him and my heart soften, I couldn't resist and called out to him. He followed my voice and finally found me but he pretended that he doesn't know me; he has that disgusted look in his eyes that cut right through my heart. I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab. At that moment, I have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my hubby: "Darling, I am having your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me round in circles of joy. What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my tears started rolling down. Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the test of one fight? Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and the disgusted look in his eyes. I cried and wet the corner of the blanket.

That night, sound of the drawers opening woke me up. I switched on the lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face. He was removing the money. I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank deposit book and some money and left the house. Maybe he really intends to leave me for good. What a rational man, so clear-cut in love and money matters. I gave a few dried laugh and tears starting streaming down again.

The next day, I did not go to work. I wanted to clear this out and have a good talk with hubby. I reached his office and his secretary gave me a weird look and said: "Mr. Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the hospital." I stood there in shock. I rushed to the hospital and by the time I found hubby, mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look at me, his face was expressionless. I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes. My god, how could this happen? Throughout the funeral, hubby did say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted stare at me. I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from other people. That day, after mother left the house, she walked in dazed toward the bus stop, apparently intending to go back to her old house back in the countryside. As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk faster and as she tried to cross the street, a public bus came and hit her...

I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up that morning, if we had not quarreled, if... In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother.

Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every night with a strong liquor smell on him. And me, I am buried under the guilt and self pity and could hardly breathe. I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we are going to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in. I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.

Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by, hubby came home later and later. The deadlock between us continues, we were living together like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the dead knot in his heart. One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window, I saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other and he very lightly brushed her hair for her, I understood what it meant. After recovering from that moment of shock, I entered the restaurant,stood in front of my hubby and stared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes. I have nothing to say to him, and there is no need to say anything. The girl looked at me, looks at hubby, stands up and wanted to go,hubby stretched out his hand and stopped her. He stared back at me, challenging me. I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one as if at the brink of death. I eventually backed down, if I had stood that any longer, I will collapse together with the baby inside me.

That night, he did not come home, he had chosen to use that as a way to indicate to me: Following mother's death so did our love for each other. He did not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home from work, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched - he had returned to take some of his stuff. I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything to him vanished. I lived alone; I go for my medical checkups alone, my heart breaks again and again every time I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the physical examination. My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting the baby, I told them No, I will not. I insisted on having to this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death.

One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room. The whole house was filled with cigarette smoke. On the coffee table, there was this piece of paper. I know what it is all about without even looking at it. In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "You wait a while, I will sign." He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes,just like mine. As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot cry, you cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come out from there. After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy. I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pull e paper towards me. Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and pushed the paper to him. "LD, you are pregnant?"

Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could not control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops. I said: "Yes, but its ok, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat, facing each other. Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket. In my heart, everything seems so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could never reach them. I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me, I had originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't. In the western restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold look in his eyes, I will never forget, ever. We have drawn such deep scares in each other's heart. For me, its unintentional; for him, totally intentional. I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized now, what had gone past is gone forever and could not repeated.Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart, I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me, I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him. From the moment I signed on that piece of paper, marriage and love had vanished from my heart.

Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom, but when he walks in, I will walk out to the living room. He had no choice but to sleep in mother's room. At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of groaning, I kept quiet. This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I ignore him, he would fake illness and I will surrender and find out what is wrong with him, he would then grab me and laugh. He has forgotten that last time; I cared for him and am concerned because there is love, but now, what is there between us? Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing all the way till baby was born.

Almost everyday, he would buy something for the baby, infant products, children products and books that kids like to read. Bags and bags of it stacked inside his room till it is full. I know he is trying to use this to reach out to me, but I am no longer moved by his actions. He has no choice but to lock himself in his room and I can hear his typing away on his computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing, but none of that
matters to me anymore.

It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain, hubby came rushing into the room, its like he did not change and sleep, and had been waiting for this moment. He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car, holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brown, throughout the journey to the hospital. Once we reached the hospital, he carried me and hurried into the delivery suite. Lying on the back of his skinny but warmth body, a thought crossed my mind: In my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did? He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in, his warm eyes caused me to managed a smile at him despite my contraction pain.

Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son, and me, his eyes tear with joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his hand. Hubby looked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor. I cried out for him in pain... He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of his... I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but the truth is, I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at that moment.

Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, it was already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to last this long. I asked the doctor when did he first discover he had cancer? Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying: "Prepare for his funeral." I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home, I went into his room and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hits me.

Hubby's cancer was discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I had thought that... the computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote for our son: "Son, just for you, I have persisted, to be able to take a look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now... I know that in your life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks, if only I can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be. But daddy now no longer has that chance. Daddy has written inside here all the possible difficulties and problems you may encounter during your lifetime, when you meet with these problems, you can refer to daddy's suggestion... Son, after writing these 200 thousand words, I feel as if I have accompanied you through your life journey. To be honest, daddy is very happy. Do love your mother, she has suffered, she is the one who loves you most and also the one who loves me most..." From play school to primary school, to secondary, university, to work and even in dealing with questions of love, everything big and small was written there.

Hubby has also written a letter for me: "My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I want to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby... My dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would smile, thank you for loving me... These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him every year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging..."

Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma. I brought our son over and place him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..." He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile. Our son still in his arms was happily waving his tiny hands in the air. I press the button on the camera and the sound of the shutter rang thought the air as tears slowly rolled down my face...

The end






The One With The Baby Names 

It's about less than 10 weeks to go. And I am going to pack my bag soon.

We have decided on a few names. But thought this will be a fun topic. And since we havent register the birth certificate, we still have time to change it. *wink

What shall we name the baby? Should it be just a simple name like Ali? Or Abu? Or Mawar? 1 syllable? Or should it be 2? 3? I have a friend who's name is just 'Ida'. Cool. What about 'Wan Mohammad Kamarruddin Shah bin Wan Mohammad Sallehuddin Shah'?

Hmm...I pity the child when he/she has to fill out the exam papers. Like for UPSR, we have shade the circles accordingly. That would probably take 2 sheets of paper. What about carrying two I/Cs coz the name is just too long to put in one?

Or what about having it with reference of both sides of the family.

My family
Full name: Shariza
Father: Hamzah Alias
Mother: Khatijah Ahmad
Sibling: Syaza Nadrah

Zen's family
Full name: Zen Akmal
Father: Dol Bakri Nasom
Mother: Rubiah Hussin
Siblings: Zulfa Vety, Zabidi, Zarith Safinaz
Nieces/Nephews: Nurul Sakinah, Nurul Farhana, Nurul Nabila, Durrahannah Hazeeqah

My father suggested Hamzah Dol Mat if it's a boy, named after a violinist and of course referred to both sides of the family. Obviously, it was cancelled out. An ex-boss called and informed that he too would be getting a baby soon. He suggested Osama Mahathir for his son. Hahaahaa...it was a shocker to his Oz family, it was merely a joke. But would you do that? What about Mahathir Anwar? Hahahaaa...that would be very irony.

So people...any suggestions? Short? Long? Unique? Modern like Zakry, Jefry, Nadiya? Traditional like Mawar, Puteh?

Have you ever encountered any weird names? Names we should avoid?







The One With 'Kalau Dah Jodoh' 

A malay proverbs said "Kalau dah jodoh, takkan ke mana".. true indeed.. some people got back together after years apart.. but in Kamarudin Mohamad and Khadijah Udin case, you really need to read on..

Excerpts :
Kamarudin ketika ditemui pada majlis itu berkata, apabila menyerahkan surat cerai kepada Khadijah kira-kira 47 tahun lalu, beliau ada mengatakan: "Kalau ada jodoh, kita tidak akan ke mana."

Kata-kata itu menjadi kenyataan apabila selepas 47 tahun berpisah dan melalui 52 kali perkahwinan, beliau akhirnya kembali ke pangkuan wanita pertama yang dikahwininya iaitu pada 1957.

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"Ada antara perkahwinan saya hanya mengambil masa paling singkat dua hari, selepas itu kami bercerai. Paling lama selama 20 tahun iaitu dengan isteri yang berasal dari Wilayah Songkhla, Selatan Thailand."

Read more here and here..
Ermm.. I was like "Haaaaa!"

It was also stated that, Kamarudin never have more than one wife at a time aka never "bermadu".. hmmm..

An interesting fact is, Khadijah is also the mother of M. Rajoli (from her first marriage). The latter, a famous movie and TV drama actor who occasionally plays a role as an "Orang Tua Gatal" , known to be married just twice. His current wife is Wan Chik Othman, a newscaster way back during the 80s..






Monday, October 04, 2004
The One With the ISA and blogging 

Can you actually imagine that blogging can get you under the ISA charge? Read here.

What the f*** is the government thinking of??? I just dont get it. What is under the ISA? Reformation? Homosexuality? Sexuality acts? What??? Would it mean that if I were to write something crazy about having a superb orgy..or I am a supporter of homosexuality or I am DSAI's supporter or I am a communist...would the ISA starts chasing me next????

Duh?!!! There's soooo many websites, be it by Malaysians or not, which can be unethical, or oppose our values as Malaysians, or as Muslims, or as who we are. Should the government start howling us? DO they have the right to do so???

Hey we didnt send the flyers to the public. The blog on the Net is for everyone. You choose what you want to read. Or what you DONT want to read. That's your choice. If you dont like it, dont read it. Nobody is forcing. As a blogreader, you shouldnt be judgemental of the blogger. Rather if you hate it, you can give comments. Say what you want. You are FREE to do so.

Can you, the government hold us back?!!! NO! You dont have the right to do so!

And that's final!






The One With the Media 

So okay...

We have got the newspapers, the radio, the TV..wat else? The Web...aka blogs, forums, wat-not.

We know that newspapers, radios, TVs are under all commercial companies. Specifically for Malaysian newspapers, radios, TVs, most of them are governed by the government. It doesnt really matter whether it is a private company or a government body. MOST of them are governed by the government, or so to say the powerful people of Malaysia ie politicians and wat-not.

So tell me, what is actually the role of a media presentor? To tell the truth behind everything? Let's focus on the News bit. Would you say that you get a totally truthful news? I dont think so. I am pretty sure that most are filtered. Of course, one might say that filtering is important. To filter out the bad omens that one news could bring. Well, there's the advantages and disadvantages.

Nonetheless, it is always important to get the REAL thing. No filters. No lies. And where else if not the Net? Would you consider blogging shd be governed by some 'people' too? I dont think so. Of course, if the blogger did it (being rude/unethically) purposely, he should be blamed. Even so, what can we do as the blogreader? Stop reading the blog la. Or be a commentor and write some crude comments back. But what if a commentor does it? I know our blog's comment application cant filter tht.

Oh well, the thing is...get REAL la people. If we want to kutuk anyone in our blog, so what?!!! When can we have our free speech anyway?!!!

With response to what Jeff Ooi is experiencing in his blog.

p/s: what's this about Jeff Ooi to charged under ISA?!!! It wasnt him who did it. It was the commentor 'Anwar'. I think everything is getting haywire. Get the real juice la.






The One With the AnteNatal Graduation 

**I started typing this last Wednesday. But, I had a major fungal infection which I had to rush to the hospital then. I was on MC for 2 days last week. Sorry for the late posting.

For the past few weeks, we have been going for AnteNatal Classes at the hospital; Damansara Specialist Hospital. The classes comprise of 4 session (2 hrs per session). It was RM150 per couple, with refreshments and doorgifts, from 7 to 9 pm. There were to groups (Tuesdays/Thursdays). We went to the Tuesdays group.

Last night (28 Sept) was the last class. Thus, as part of the graduation thingy, I shall give you the conclusion/summary of the whole antenatal classes. I do hope my hubby is aware of the teachings, for I wouldnt be able to remember most of it, esp the ones crucial during labor.

Diet and Nutrition

The recommended weight gain:
1. Underweight (BMI < 18.5): 13 - 18 kg
2. Normal (BMI 18.5 - 24.9): 12 - 16 kg
3. Overweight (BMI >25): 7 - 11 kg

Normal diet pyramid, except increase the intake of milk and dairy products.

*Avoid rapid weight loss
*Takes about 10 months to return to pre-pregnancy weight
*Reduce portion of food only after 6 months (at least) to avoid affecting milk production

What to Bring for Delivery
1. Documents: I/C, Appointment Card, Guarantee Letters, Deposit
2. At least 4 pairs of nighties/T-shirts with front openings
3. Slippers or flat sandlas
4. A jacket or dressing gown
5. Maternity bras, nursing pads, cotton panties or disposable panties
6. Shower cap and toiletries
7. A set of comfortable clothes for going home (both for mother and baby)
8. Mittens for baby

When to come to hospital (Beginning signs)
1. Contractions which are regular and frequent. (Contractions are feltas low abdominal cramps, similar to period pains, sometimes with backache)
2. A 'show' of mucus or blood or a mixture of both. (Show is a vaginal discharge)
3. Rupture of membranes, which may occur quite dramatically or as a slow leak. (Known as waterburst)

Do some antenatal exercise and backcare movements for physical relaxation. It is said that it helps for easier and faster labour. Brisk walking or swimming helps a lot.
Do some mental relaxation exercise ie listen to music, imagine/visualise pleasant environment

Breathing Techniques During Labour
1. THREAT Breathing - Deep, slow continuous breathing.
2. SOS Breathing - Sigh out softly (Normal breathing in fllowed by longer breathing out)
3. Saying "I Wont Push" - Breathing in for the first word, and giving a long sigh out for the last 2 words
4. Pant-Pant-Blow
5. Block and Push

Three Stages of Labour

Stage ONE (Dilatation of the Cervix)

a. Beginning Signs
1. A presentation of the beginning signs
2. 3 to 4 cm cervix dilatation
3. Contractions are about 7 - 20 mins apart, Duration is 30 - 40 secs
4. 8 to 15 hours for complete dilatation of servix
5. Use Threat Breathing

b. Active Phase
1. 3 to 5 hours
2. 4 to 8 cam cervix dilatation
3. Contractions are about 2 - 5 mins apart, duration is 40 - 50 secs
4. May have backache, coldfeet, discomfort in lower abdomen
5. Use SOS Breathing

c. Transitional Phase
1. 1/2 hr to 2 hours
2. 8 to 10 cm cervix dilatation
3. Contractions is 1 min intervals, long peak, duration is 60 - 90 secs
4. May have blood show and waterburst
5. Use "I Wont Push" Breathing

Stage TWO (Explusion of Baby)
1. 1/2 hr to 2 hours
2. Contraction is 2 to 4 mins apart, duration 60sec - easier to control
3. Baby crowning
4. Vaginal & Perineal muscles stretching
5. May require episotomy (a cut at the vaginal to give more space for the baby)
*DO NOT push unless told to do so. To ensure that the vaginal is not ruptured/bruised during the process. To avoid swelling of the vaginal/cervix.

Stage THREE (Placental Delivery, Uterine Contraction and Retraction)
1. Final push

Pain Relief in Labour
1. Epidural (temporary blocking the passage of messages along the nerves which lead from the womb and birth canal to the brain - with the help of local anaesthetic) - u feel numb at lower abdomen
2. Injection of Pethidine (injection of pain killer) - u maybe sleepy but still conscious
3. Gas - u maybe sleepy but still conscious

Breastfeeding
*Ideally breastfeed exclusively for 6 months.
*For the first few days after delivery, do not give anything else to the baby. Even if the milk production is slow. Baby may cry, demanding for milk. But once introduced to the bottle, future breastfeeding will fail.
*Attaching and positioning the baby is important for effective breastfeeding. (To avoid damaging the nipples ie baby grasp the nipple and most of the areola).
*Breastfeeding helps with the weight loss and family planning.

MOST IMPORTANT!!!
Role of fathers
*Since mothers have the privilege of carrying the baby for 9 whole months, the fathers have the privilege to be in the delivery room. They HAVE to be in the delivery. Whether you'll get screwed there ie "THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!!!" shoutings/screamings, or the handholdings which can crush your fingers, and the BLOODY sight, ONLY FATHERS are allowed in the delivery room. So you know where you should be, right fathers?!!! That is THEIR privilege.
*They are the coaches in the labour room. It is common tht the mothers tend to forget what is taught in the antenatal classes. So the fathers have to be on standby for this.
*Always, always ask the mother's permission before doing anything in the labour room. The mothers are hyper sensitive at this point of time. You probably get screwed if you are not wise enough.
*Fathers are to assist with the housework during and after pregnancy.
*Fathers are to take the night shifts, as for the first few months, the baby would need 2 to 3 feeding per night. Mothers definitely would hardly get a good sleep.

Hopefully everything goes well for us in 10 weeks.

Pray for us, guys.

Thanks.






The One With The Asian Heroes 

Somebody sent me a note, asked me to vote for TIMEasia.com Asian Heroes Poll.. 20 finalists have been chosen for the 2nd Annual online voting.. Burmese Nobel Prize, Aung San Suu Kyi is currently top the list with Malaysian Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim and Tibetian Dalai Lama are trailing behind.. The winner will be announced via a special website later today..

** update : Poll results for Asia's Heroes 2004 available here

In 2003 poll, majority 37% of online voters nominated Korea's 2002 World Cup Football team as their heroes.. Malaysian former PM Tun Dr Mahathir only managed to get 2.7% votes, 6th out of 20 nominees, even behind the Philipines' iron lady Corazon Aquino..

However, what interest me the most was, the Magazine Special Edition issue of April 28, 2003 / Vol. 161 No. 16 cover.. haha.. Asian Comedy God Genius.. none other than Stephen Chow Sing Chi..

Excerpts :
If Hong Kong has a Charlie Chaplin, he's it. The 40-year-old Chow started off as the lint in society's navel but has pulled himself up through wit, will and a keen appreciation for the cinematic uses of insanity. After growing up impoverished in working-class Kowloon, he tried to break into acting at age 19 by auditioning for a training course run by a local TV station. Knowing his height might be a problem—he's dubiously listed at 1.73 meters—he bought an expensive pair of elevator shoes. The judges never gave him a second glance. "At that time the concept of a star has got to be somebody tall like Chow Yun-fat," he says. "Someone like me on the TV or the screen is impossible."

Read on..
For some, they might know Stephen Chow only from Shaolin Soccer (2001) which managed to break into western market via its English version distributed by Miramax Films in 2004.. As for me, with the exposed from Singapore TV channel SBC8 (now TCS8), I know Chow (and his mighty side-kick Ng Man Tat) for years.. I also collected many of his movies.. my favourites would be Legend of the Dragon, GoG3 : Back to Shanghai, Fight Back to School Triology, Royal Tramp Duology, King of Beggars, Magnificent Scoundrels, Flirting Scholar, The Lucky Guy, Hail the Judge... ( ahhh.. the list goes on and on.. ).. A friend of mine, (also a Johorean) is even a worse Chow's freak.. He went to cinema to watch Shaolin Soccer more than 5 times.. and hundreds times more watching VCD, nights and days ..

For Chow's fans, good news coz he is back!!.. His latest movie, Kungfu Hustle which set during the chaos of pre-revolutionary China, will come to cinema on 23 December (source : CinemaOnline).. For those who haven't know who Stephen Chow is, this is your best chance to know him.. So guys. get ready to hustle!!







Friday, October 01, 2004
The One With All The Rumours 

Rumours.. rumours.. Some people like rumours more that they like the real facts..

So.. lately many rumours has been flying across this country.. Siti Nurhaliza vs Kak Pah.. Money politics in UMNO (well.. heheh.. I do think this is not just a rumour).. Even Shazmin of Mix.fm received lots of phone calls and SMSes congratulated her on her new 3.4kg 'still-unborn-baby'.. all because of some rumours that has been spread around..

Yesterday, Utusan published a report saying Ipoh born actress Datuk Michelle Yeoh has accepted THE question popped by Ferrari F1 Managing and Sporting Director, Jean Todt.. Utusan said it was according to Morning Post.. I was about to blog on the topic but I decided not to since I couldn't find the original source.. and today Utusan and The Star reported Michelle Yeoh denies the claim..

(Heck!! Local newspapers especially Utusan has becoming more and more tabloid-wannabe.. Oh come on.. I thought they have Kosmos to sell all these shits.. Remember the Mustafa Kamal of MKLand vs Manchester United case? )

It was said that Miss Malaysia 1983 and ex-Bond girl Michelle, 42 met Jean Todt, 58 at a Ferrari function in Shanghai.. The couple was introduced by Michelle's ex-boyfriend, Thomas Chung.. Public then spotted them together about a month later in Hungarian GP..

To think of it (read : Jean-Michelle relationships). It was pretty funny when TV3 8pm news aired the phone conversation between the reporter and Michelle's mother, Datin Janet.. quoted from The Star “If it is true, I am happy for her, as I have always been”.. Very similar like Ambank Homeloan radio advert, "As long as she's happy, I'm happy..".

Yeoh was said to be happy in the relationship and that she “would inform everyone if I get married in the future.”

I wonder who got the bigger catch here..

On a slightly ironic note, I wonder why there was a lesser hype regarding our Work Minister comments on MRR2 investigation reports which has been completed by Halcrow Consultants Ltd.

Lick back ur own spat eh, Mr. Semi?